A Life Saving Tragedy 
Susan Evans



I was drunk sitting at my kitchen table at 3:00 AM in September 1987, when my mom approached me and said; “Greg’s dead, honey, your cousin Greg and his girlfriend Cara are dead! They were killed by a drunk driver tonight!”  The news sobered me immediately!  I got up from the table and walked outside to inspect my car for damage.  I thought it might have been me who killed them because I didn’t remember driving home that night.

 

Greg was killed on his 20th birthday, six days after mine.  His girlfriend Cara was 18.

 

I will remember that day until I die.  It was my wake-up call from Christ and it changed my life forever.  I’d like to share with you just how much my life changed.  

 

Growing up for me wasn’t easy. Chaos was considered normal in our home. Screaming, yelling, hitting and fighting was almost a daily occurrence.  Physical and verbal abuse was the reality, and so I chose to use drugs and alcohol as my escape from my home life.

 

Shortly before Greg died my mom had begun to attend a non-denominational church and was “saved”.  From that time on she would constantly try to talk to me about Jesus, but I did not share in her excitement or enthusiasm about Jesus.  I chose to continue in my escape from the reality of life.  Every Sunday she would ask me to go to church with her, but my answer was always “no”.  Finally, without my being aware, she began to pray diligently for me until a couple of months later I awakened one morning to find that all desire for drugs was gone, and I’ve not touched drugs since then. 

 

Alcohol was a different story.  I still chose it as an escape from all of my hurt and pain.  I just didn’t want to deal with the realities of life, so drinking was the easy way out for me until Greg’s birthday.

 

It was at his funeral that I came face to face with death, and at such a young age. I knew a little bit about Christ and Heaven and Hell, but one question rang loud in my head, “Where will I go when I die?” I knew that I wanted to go to Heaven, but I didn’t know what I had to do to make that possible.  At the same time I knew that I’d better find out, because we just never know when our last day on earth will be.

 

I later found myself in a church that was quite different than what I was used to.  I heard the Pastor speak, “We are all sinners, each and every one of us.”  (Romans 3:23 “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God”).  And then he went on to speak about “Jesus Christ, God’s only Son, who came to earth, died on a cross, and was raised from the dead, so that all of our sins would be forgiven, and when our time on earth is finished, we will have a home with Him in Heaven forever more.  (John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.” )  Jesus loves us that much! 

 

If we will confess our sins to Him, and ask Him to be our Savior and Lord over our lives, and believe it with all our heart, Jesus Christ will forgive us for all we’ve ever said or done and give us a fresh new start in life.  He so wants to have a relationship with us! He knows all about us, and He wants us to know all about Him.” 

As the Pastor continued to speak, my whole body was on fire (not literally) but I knew how it would feel before you could humanly combust.  He said, “If anyone wants to make that decision to receive Jesus, so that your sins be forgiven, come forward to the altar.”

 

I wanted to go forward so bad, but I froze!  Everything within me was screaming “Go Forward, Go Forward!” but I just stood there, frozen to the spot, looking around at all of the other people,  I was so afraid of what they would think of me that I didn’t go forward. 

 

After the church service ended, we went home and I didn’t speak a word about what had happened.  However I did go back to the same church the following Sunday and once again the Pastor spoke of God’s plan of salvation.  As he spoke I was once again   consumed with what felt like a fire burning inside of my body.  I later found out that it was the work of the Holy Spirit deep within me.  

 

The Pastor spoke from Revelation 3:19-21 Those whom I love I rebuke (scold) and discipline. So be earnest (sincere), and repent (be remorseful). Here I AM!  I stand at the door and knock!  If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him and he with Me. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with Me on My throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne.”

 

The Pastor went on to ask, “Will you answer the door to Jesus or ignore Him?”  So I opened the door of my heart to Jesus.  I quickly went forward to the altar and was led in a prayer asking Him to forgive all my sins, be my Savior and be Lord over my life.  My life has never been the same since!

 

 It all happened because of Jesus, the blood He shed and the undeserved grace and mercy He gave to me so freely.  And all of those people I had been so afraid of rejoiced, including Heaven, as I accepted Jesus’ free gift of salvation.  (Luke 15:10 “I tell you there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”)

 

Also, I know now, without a doubt, that when I die I will be in Heaven with Jesus forever, and you can know that, too!  Jesus loves you and so wants to bless your life here on earth.  And when your life on earth is finished, it is His desire that you be with Him in Heaven for all eternity.  Nevertheless, this is a decision that you, yourself, must make, and it will be the most important decision you will make in your life time for it will determine your destiny.    

 

It is my prayer that you will open your heart and choose Jesus as your Savior and Lord of your life.  If you are willing to open your heart and choose Jesus, this little prayer will change your life forever if you pray it with all your heart.

 

“Lord Jesus, I am so sorry for every sin I have committed in my life.  I confess that I am a sinner and I need You to save me.  I repent of all of my sins!  I do believe, with all my heart, that You suffered and died on the cross for my sins, and You were raised three days later so that I might live with You here on earth, and also in Heaven, for all eternity.

 

“Jesus, I open the door of my heart to you now and invite you to come in, be my Savior and be the Lord of my life.  Fill me with Your Holy Spirit and then lead me and guide me in the way You would have me to go.  I want Your best for my life. 

 

“Thank You, Lord Jesus, for loving me while I was still a sinner and bringing me to Yourself that I might have salvation.” 

Romans 10:9 says, “If you will confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”   Hallelujah!

God’s blessings to you,

Susan Evans